Sunday, December 17, 2006
i'm reminded of how time flew this year.
2 more weeks and its the start of a new year, and maybe a better year ahead,
i hope.Reflecting on this year, it wasnt as smooth sailing as i wish it would be.
It was full of ups and downs,
filled with dissapointments, pain, heartbreaks and maybe a little twinge of regret.
i went through this years with lots of tears and worries.
Somedays, it just seems too much to take.
give me a paper and pen, i can jolt down all the events, whether its big or small,
all i had never felt great about.
sometimes in life, we tried our best, we really tried hard,
and i could say i really tried my best
but yet all i got back was nothing but mere dissapointment,
and worst off, no one knew how hard i tried.
i've never like the feeling of being blame,
never like the feeling of being accused,
but yet time after time, i've been put up to trial.
it wasnt until this year that i knew how to defend myself
it wasnt until this year that i saw through lots of things, saw through lots of people,
it wasnt until this year that i truly felt the coldness...
just within this year, i've learn to stay true to myself.
in the past years, i had always worried about how people look at me, how they feel about me.
but not this year anymore.
i'm not going to live my life pleasing everyone around me.
whats more, i tried, but wat i got back?
was none other then those cold stares and cold words.
on many occassions, i felt like giving up
there were lots of confusions,
it just felt like no one really understood you,
there were so many days that my faith was tested.
so many days that my mind dont seem to be able to rest...
reading through my diary entries,
i rembered writing how much two people meant alot to me
but yet now, i'm left speechless.
Maybe its time to learn to stand on my own..
until this day i truly understand the possiblity that anythng could happen
what you least expected would definatly happen
who would thought that everything would go this way.
now all i feel is a tinge of regret and bag full of disspointments..
i guess time will make me strong
but now, i just want to hide.
You know where I come fromYou know my storybut why were you in a hurry?I wait for the postman to bring me a letter.And I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better.And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders.
